tears

tears

Dont cry for who i am
Shed tears for who i was.
My nature aint my fathers.
I broke that circle by choice.
I cried my tears.
I shed my fears.
I am becoming who I wish.
I learn my lessons.
I take the pain.
In the end tis i who`ll gain.

Andy Fox. 30/07/07

ok its not great..but its down.. 

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Sunday musings

Sunday musings.

I make no apologies for the person i am.
I make no apologies for the person i will be.
I love my friends.They love me.
One day i will love again.
One day i will be loved again..
one day.
i just hope its not too far away.
Sunday musings.
Sunday musings.
Sunday musings on a sunny day.
Sunday musings on love.Again.

Andy Fox. 29/7/07 

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Old white truck.

Old white truck.

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I remember how you clung to me.
How you bawled like a frightened child.
I remember feeling like a sailor lost.
And holding you so tight.
I remember holding you in my arms.
While you explored your dreams.
I remember holding your hand in mine.
While telling you my fears.
I remember the tears.
I remember the good times we had.
You laid in my arms.
I remember just watching you breathing.
Tucked into my side.
I remember feeling Oh So alive.
I remember hardly believing my luck.
That someone oh so beautifull
Would fall for this old white truck.

Andy Fox. July 2007 

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Angels.

Hell isnt heaven without friends.Hell is when you are trapped in the maze of your mind.The lucky ones.i am a VERY lucky one,find the way out.The not so lucky ones need help.And there are others,like a cousin of mine,who take thier own way out.
Heaven is accepting yourself exactly as you are.Angels are folk who accept you exactly as you are.
Hello Angel  

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Testament

Testament.

Do not mourn me when i`m gone.
My time is passed.I must move on.
Shed no tears for the gentle guy.
I will live on inside your mind.
I came.I shared.My time is done.
And now dear friends i must move on.

Andy Fox 20 july 07

ps.I aint going nowhere..But Put that on my Gravestone

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Yorkshire

Modified from: No need to fly.

I have driven a road made silver by the moon.
Seen Dounreay bay at dusk.
I have seen dawn rising over Dover.
And mist rising from the waters of Lough Neagh.
What need have i for flying?
I have driven here many a mile
I have seen many wondrous sights.

I have driven above the clouds in cumbria.
Seen the peaks stand clear in relief.
I have driven through the highlands of scotland.
Marvelled at the visions of England through Borders roads

This glorious land of Britain.
This land of peaks and troughs.
What need have i for flying?
Why the need to be above the clouds?
Why not stay at ground level
And appreciate the more.

I have seen the sights of this country.
I have seen the light and shade.
From the people busy citys
And a silent shadowed glade.
All this and more i have witnessed.
All this and more tis true.
And still i return to Yorkshire.
My one true love and true.

andy fox 2007.

This is an altered version of an earlier poem. I wonder if it works ok??

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Thoughts. The edit.

11/05/2007
Thoughts .

The downside to the highs are the lows.
The flipside to being open is being closed.
Sometimes i am out of reach.
The troughs mirror the peaks.
Oh yes the downside to the highs are the lows.

I am doing what i think best.
Smite my nose.
I know you dont agree.
So it goes.
I would take your advice.
Though it isnt very nice.
But i am doing as i see best.
So it goes.

I am going to lose my soul.
This i know.
Though it really walked away
Years ago.
I give my love for free.
It is too intense for thee.
Once more alone and free.
More fool me..

I am beyond the reach of friends.
This i know.
I live in a sea of pain.
So intense.
It would be better if i walked.
Be far better if we talked.
But you cant and my thoughts fork.
Wheres the fence??

I have learnt an awfull lot
since we met.
And i was told to back away.
Too intense.
I am beyond the reach of friends.
And oh my thoughts so very wretched .
Oh what a bloody mess.
And i love you yet.

I now walk my rocky road.
All alone.
I have walked this road before.
On my own.
My soulmate walks alone.
I cannot,dare not,hold her hand.
Oh gods am i a man??
Is this all a silly plan?
Do i have to spend my life.
on my own.

And the downside to the highs are the lows.
I am losing who i love.
This i know.
If an angels watching her
please keep her safe from harm .
Thats my one and heartfelt prayer.
So it goes.

There is one more thing to say before i go.
You have to know i love you everso.
My presence does you harm.
I cant bear that.I must go.
May the angels keep you safe.
Evermore.

Andrew Fox. 10 may 07

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Insanity

Insanity is irrelevant said the clown.
As tripping over a plank he fell down.
He smiled as he said it.
It was painted on his face.
And nobody saw the tears trickle down..
Down the face of the clown..

Andy Fox
2303/180707

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Lore

Lore

i wear a cynical smile.
to keep me sane.
it helps avoid the hurt and pain.
it tells the world i dont give a damn.
It lies for the I inside.

So i carry a shield,though not a wall,
as if i do not care at all.
The jibes,the barbs.I look to ignore.
If i fool myself how many more
will be fooled.
and thus move on?

And so i wear my cynical smile.
and will wear it till the day i die.
We both know its not the truth.
The truth lies safely hidden.
Its hidden deep inside my head.
Where it is safe.
And protected.

LORE

Andrew says:

lore=a myth

 

This is one of my earlier works..reworked and cleaned up..

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Rouge

You sit there dressed in shades of black.
Isnt it strange how alone you can feel?
Even when in the company of a woman who held your heart in thier hands.
How you wish you could change things.
Not be sat in the same room as this stranger.
This husk of a woman you used to love.
You make your excuses and leave.
Taking with you your memories of a warm and vibrant woman.
Leaving behind the dull and beaten husk of a woman you felt so deeply for.
Not knowing why she is so changed you shed tears.
But still you leave.

Andy Fox. 12-07-07

This isnt about the lady i was seeing.Yet i wrote it.Most odd.

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